In a field

In the middle of a field sits a church. At that church is were a good friend of mine from high school is getting married. For today you see my good friend from high school is getting married to the love of his life. I'm quite happy for him, how can I not be? I mean he found the one that he will spend the rest of his days with. That's great, for him at least. For me, well not so damn great. I mean I love Eric and I'm quite happy for him and his soon to be wife Emily. But I can't help and be some what bitter. No it was the 3hr train ride from Chi Town, or the flight. It was not any that. What it is, is the facet that as I get older and older I seem to be going to a lot more fucking weddings. I guess that is the season of life that I'm in right not. But it's the shits. When I was younger I would go to a few wedding of family and friends of the family but I really didn't know them all that well so I really didn't give a fuck. Now well I know them there my friends and some of theme my good friends. There were 5 of us; Eric, Shawn, Brandon, Josh and I. Of that Shawn and Brandon are now married and well here I set in Eric's condo about ready to go his wedding. So that just leaves Josh and I. Josh is a lost cause he's in the army know and he's a lost cause, he has changed his believes around and such. So that just leaves me and little old me of the fab 5. I mean that kind of sucks but that's the way of fucken life just let the chips fall as they must. Yet I really don't know I guess it will happen for me someday. I will find the girl of my dreams, but for now I'm bitter and it happens every time I go to one of these damn wedding. I should be happy, it's the happiest day of my buddues life. But I'm more like the 30 year old single chick, that every one hates at weddings. I know I'm only 23 turn 24 in a month, so I'm too young to feel this way. But to that I say FUCK. There are quite a few of my buddies that are older than I that have not found the one either. so there is still hope I guess and that is what I'm going to hold onto, That little bit of hope!